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Question by Maverick: Could you please help me define my disorder?
I only want the answer to the question above. My parents say that I am a good kid. That I never get into major trouble, that my GPA is untouchable (4.7) and that i am a nice person. However, as that question states there is a problem. I am EXTREMELY hard on myself for a 16 year old. I do the smallest things wrong, like forgetting to wear my hearing aids, and I feel like I just obliterated my week. I know that what my parents say is true, but I can only focus on the negative aspects of my life. Obviously, my self esteem is a little low. This was all fine, until about five years ago. The first year I started causing physical pain to myself, but i never broke the skin. As I grew older, I started to increase the frequency and intensity. Now, I am stabbing myself with blunt objects hard enough to cause bruising and bleeding. Also, it seems as if i can actually feel waves of hatred flowing off of me. I know that “cutting” is wrong and that I shouldn’t do it, but it seems now that I am addicted. Similar to how a person gets addicted to smoking. They start smoking before they realize it is a bad habit. Once they do realize that it is wrong, they are too late. So, please don’t post, “you need to stop cutting.” Like most cutters, I have kept this secret. My Mother is a major contributor to this issue, due to her tendency to get pissed over the “small” things I do. I have almost broke up my parents several times in the past, but my Dad will not be the same. I feel that I will not be able to tell him, for it will just make our problems worst. I would rather deal with this and any other situation on my own, than turn to him for help on something that will only hurt. I am suicidal. I will not be committing to it anytime soon, but I fear that the day will come. My Dad says that the reason I am good kid is that I listen to the advice of those with more experience. Since I cannot turn to relatives, I will now open my mind to what you have to say.
Thank you for the time you took to reply.
Best answer:
Answer by monysingh
The purpose is to not just give you a good answer but to help you. I suggest that you visit the following website and go through it and you will find your own answers.
http://www.vedicwisdom.com
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